I think I'm insane. I need chocolate. I need...

Okay. Compilation of things I need:

1. Food. Anything as long as it's edible.
2. A good cry. You know, it's been months since I last cried, no matter how much I try.
3. A crush. OH, for the love of.... what am I? A lesbo? Wake up heart! Get out and search for some cute guys!!! GO!!!! (Is it obvious that I'm desperate?)
4. The Nanny. As in, yes the show with Fran Drescher. Wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
5. Meg Cabot.
6. A muse. As in, inspiration. To get writing. What's happening to me????? (Actually Meg Cabot can be my muse anytime. A serious lack of her in my life is getting me down.)
   

My life is sad. Don't expect me to make a decent post in a while.

Thing is. Being lonely is like waking up one morning and realizing everyone has left you behind. Opening your eyes, feeling the stinging coldness, icy needles poking all over your body. Getting kicked from behind and realizing at last the truth of life.

Sigh.

But loneliness isn't just being alone. I admit things have been nuts these days and I wish I could stop seeing them everywhere. "Them" as in the people who are *ahem*. Forget it.

Ever felt lonely?

Have I?

...

Know what? I need a life.

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There's something in my system I need to get out.

Out! NOW!

SHOO!

GO AWAY!

Ahh, it's gone now. :)

Thank you.

Serious contemplation

Someone once told me that I'm insensitive. At that time, I denied it. I wasn't insensitive, just brutally honest.

Tactless.

Insensitive.

There are some things I must keep to myself. But I don't. I tell the world.

Silly old me.

I guess, in a way, it defines me.

Trust me to be honest.

No. Don't. There are things I really DO keep to myself.

I don't criticize.

I advise.

I'm sorry if you didn't get whatever I was blabbering about.

I'm arguing with myself.

It's fun.

Try it sometime!

:D

No matter how much I change, I'll always end up the same, only rougher in texture.

Thank you!

No classes. Cool.

Oh. Hey.

No classes tomorrow.

My weak attempt at defeating blogger's block 2 minutes after declaring that I am indeed suffering from it.

Sigh
Sigh
SIGH

Things...

I do realize that I had a post with the same title on my Friendster blog... hehehe... but thing is, a couple of things have happened during the past few days...

1. Today was our AJSS graduation. As much as I want to celebrate that I no longer have to go to school every single day during my summer vacation, I have yet to wait for the fact, that I will no longer be seeing my new friends, sink in. I'm like that. Will I cry? I will still have to find out. It feels terrible though, especially as I rode the tricycle home, knowing it would be the last time (except if I do go to Ateneo in college, where hopefully, I will meet all the AJSS-ers again). As I was in the LRT with my mom and my sister, reading all the notes in my envelope, I realize that it would be a long long time again before I get to commute back and forth to Ateneo everyday. As I type now, the fact has almost sunk in halfway. I read all your notes, and I feel sorry that I didn't get to know each and every one of you personally. I hate myself for that. (To quote Toni: I hate me! :P) In two weeks, I will be going back to SSHS. And I have a new goal. I want to be as close as I can be to every single one of my classmates. I no longer want to be that shy lonely girl sitting in a corner, all alone. But how do I do this? I don't know yet, but I will try, although that would be quite hard, considering the fact that I think I am naturally shy.... "I think".
2. What else happened.... oh yeah! Janine is back from Isabella! :) I wanna see her so badly. No, scratch that. I want to see all of my classmates so badly!!!! wahhh... :( No worries, only two weeks left... man, I so feel like crying due to abovementioned (in no. 1) reason. I feel horrible. Ugh. I guess it's true though. I'm letting my emotions out by writing. I hate my blog. It's so horribly depressing. MAN...
3. My computer broke down days ago, but thankfully it has been fixed! Yay! I can blog! :)

Well... I have nothing to say anymore. Thanks for reading and all. :)